Wednesday, May 5, 2010


Two minutes ago marked exactly a year and a half since my mother died. The 8th would have been her 62rd birthday. The 9th is Mother's Day...which has been hard for the past 5 years for infertility reasons, but now it's even worse.

At some point I will stop counting life (death?) in 6 month increments, right? I'll stop realizing when her birthday would have been, or how close it always is to Mother's Day? I will move on with my life, and these milestones won't exist unless I think about them...right? Please tell me it gets better...

And? My father decided that today would be a good day to come visit me. I have no idea why. I hope he doesn't think we're going to the cemetery - I'm already doing that on Sunday on the way to my MIL's for our monthly dinner. Two moms, one drive!

1 comment:

Jess said...

I'm so sorry. I think it will get better, but honestly I don't know and haven't been there so I won't pretend to be all "things! will! be! fine!" on you. But I do think that it will improve eventually.

GL with your dad...hopefully you can just keep in there!! :)